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about death

i've been reminded about death so much these days.
i read 2 articles about cancer patient. one still struggling (with little hope, but keep on fighting), the other one has died (choosing to live the best of the rest of his life).
the first is still young and has so much to live for.
the other is a successful business man, at his peak, half a century old.

the first one is a sad, touching story. just how you wish she can live on. but you know, this is reality. it's not always what you want. the fact is, most of the time, it is not what you want. that's what i realized in a hard way, though surely i've already known it.

realization.
whatever you know, you don't really know it until you realize it.

yeah, sure i hope she can win over the battle. that's what i've always hoped for someone dear. that one day, everything will just turn back into what it were before. a happy ending.

nope, that's not the ending. not the happy one. it's the one ended in tears, and a little guilt for not being around, for not being able to help, or being reluctant to help?

struck me hard it did. and i did learn about a lot of things (though mostly are not realized yet)

the other is something that i can say a happy ending. realizing that his life is just a few months left, he felt it's just the right time to live life to the fullest. it's the perfect chance given to him. to spend time with his wife and his children, which probably he talked to less than to his colleagues. to say sorry, thank you, and good bye to everyone. and so it goes.

these 2 people certainly have different approach to their trouble. one turned it into the best part of his life, the other turned it into a great struggle.

it's true that one shouldn't just give up. but it's even better if one can turn their unfavorable situation into favorable. that's really the best.

but for young people, that might not be the case. they have so much to live for. it's very hard to let go. that's why they'll just choose to fight it.

what will i do if i were in that situation? i'm totally unprepared, really. with no one that i can share my burden with.. ah, i'll probably just prepary my mind for the worst, the last breath. i'll just get into religion, ask a lot of questions to some monks. practise meditation.. recite mantra..

sounds like last minute preparation? yeah, this is the current spiritual level i'm at. so sad.

it surely will be different 10, 20, 30 years from now.

funny that men live as if tomorrow will always come.
those that realize (not know) that death is always around the corner will surely be a better man.

Labels: spiritual

posted by Hendy Tanata @ 23:04